You don't start helping people for free because you crave acknowledgement or want to be "taken care of" -- you do it because it feels good and that in, and of, itself should suffice.
I always did it because it felt good to help people. For 3+ years. It did suffice. In the same way FAS doesn't charge for upgrades, I did not want to charge the end-user for my videos. Yes, that's a flawed business model, but at the time I had the resources to do so. Believe it or not, I help other businesses run successfully, I handle their marketing, web, computer systems, among other things. I just didn't want this to turn into that.
As others said, if I really expected things all that time, I would have explicitly asked for them, marketed a subscription or paid service, or quit a long time ago.
I didn't intend to start a business nor did I want to be "taken care of" nor did I expect FAS to do anything for me. I said all that before, but in a sea of text it was probably missed.
Only in the past few months I wanted to ramp things up and see what it would take for the market to support a paid model, only to support itself and its time. It seems coincidentally, the CreativeLive sessions happened, G66 did their own vids... Etc. which is all great, truly.
I have a lot going on in "real life" and paired with what I wrote before about how I feel and the amount of work/funding needed to launch successfully alongside FAS official/supported things, I just need to stop and focus on other things. I'm not sure if many people understand how challenging it is to make tutorials, videos and support a product. You really constantly have to have the latest changes, firmware, features, forum posts, discussions and other stuff on the forefront of your mind. Take a break for even 2 weeks and it's a struggle to get back into it. Then you suggest something and it turns out completely wrong and you screw someone up.
I already took a break from the forum this year. Needing a 2nd one so soon is a sign that it's just not right for me. Yes, the way forum interaction has been going is making me want to stop all this as well.
It's funny (and revealing) to see people react to this like "who are you?" I know not everyone knows me or what I did. But for those wondering I wanted to explain what was going on.
A concerned citizen tweeted me yesterday saying I may look bad with that first post. Thanks, but that's how I feel and what I perceived, so it is what it is. If people read this and see me as an asshole cry-baby, so be it.
Again, I appreciate everything people have done with/for me in the past. I hold no animosity against anyone I've mentioned, I'm not mad at FAS or anyone specifically. Timing is timing, and I just need to stop.
Thanks for the comments in this thread. I expected to get advice and "you did this wrong" sort of statements. It's easy to suggest things from the outside - I do that in my day job as I mentioned. But it's hard for me to convey the impetus for all of this and why I did what I did. And that's ok. I agree with and knew about much of what was suggested.
The main reason I took everything down, is I didn't want my exit to be viewed as a passive aggressive "I'm leaving, but maybe people will donate or buy my videos since I said this to make me stay." Also, many of the vids are already out of date due to firmware changes etc. so I didn't want old info out there anyway.
But what I'll do is take out all the donate text, turn off ads and comments, and put them back up sometime. I just won't support them and answer 5 questions a day anymore
I didn't really want to type this response, but wanted to clear up that I didn't expect acknowledgement or money from this throughout the 3+ years. This thing grew very organically, but I just can't do it anymore and I'm stopping.
Take care guys.