Okay..going to meander a little here .. ..yeah, yeah, yeah! ;0) .. :0)
When I was a kid, There wasn't any real drug culture - not like today, and not that I was aware of anyway. But there was solvent abuse going on... Knowing this, My Mom, she used to read from the paper to all-us kids, stories of other kids coming undone by bad behavior, and one of those stories was a story of a kid who saw black figures in his day-to day living of life. They'd come, they'd go, he named this one particular black figure (though I can't remember the name).. Turned out that these black figures were bought on by brain damage from solvent abuse.
...Fast forward to my Cabinet Making years.. I must have laid down two football fields worth of laminates in my time in those cabinet shops.. Seen new guys just undone by those fumes. One guy literally dumped a bottle of milk all over a board and started spreading it around - thinking it was contact adhesive, and then fall off a chair when we removed him outside-away from the fumes.. Same with special finishing, the chemicals involved, lacquer thinners, etc.. Meh, I was a kid.. you get used to these things I supposed.. .. ..though I'm not entirely sure ALLLLL my faculties remain intact for it. :0)
Fast-forward to the first house me and My Wife bought. It's an oldish house - we still own it but don't live in it, .. Anyway. After living there for about six months I started seeing these dark shapes just hanging out in the kitchen and the hallway. Really strange. Best I can describe it is "a lack of light where there is light" tallish, pillar(ish) shaped but no defining edges.
I knew what it was.. Brain damage from all that solvent based adhesive I'd laid down, and all the special finishing I had done in those cabinet shops as a kid.. Finally caught upto me! ..And I was okay with it. I knew what it was. I knew there was nothing I could do about it. It wasn't bothering me. Kind of a fun distraction in a way - seeing these poorly formed tall dark shapes.. It was entertaining.
These dark shapes - they had mass, they hung out In the middle of brightly lit rooms.. Sometimes they were wisps of darkness, I could barely see them - easier to see out of the corner of my eye than dead-on, and overtimes they were much-more defined. Sometimes, though-rarely, they were imposing..
It's Very ..different ..when you actually see things like that yourself, and your of a type - like me - where, if you can't beat something to death with science or logic, it simply shouldn't exist.. It doesn't cause fear.. it causes intrigue ... "W-T-F is it???" ..and a burning need to know..
"Brain damage" ..says Mom. ..there! strangeness meet cubbyhole! ..and all the peace that comes along with all-that "knowing". After all, these things.. Must be a figment of my imagination! ..and Logically, must be due to brain damage from being around solvents for a chunk of life.. ..and I made my peace with that.
Never said anything to anybody else about it - didn't see what anybody could do about it except worry for me, or think me mad. Didn't want to worry the Wife. So kept this all of this to myself - as you do. ;0)
I was seeing these things more and more often. They became more and more pronounced. I was beginning to worry for it.
One Saturday morning I was watching TV and looked to the kitchen and there was this shape - very pronounced - just hanging out In the kitchen - a tall, three-dimensional, oddly-shapeless lack of light in a room where the sun was streaming through the windows.. and this dark shape was just ...there ...
..Because I was seeing these thing more-and-more often, I began to think it was may-be a medical thing? ..a tumor maybe? ..and I was beginning to get a tiny-bit worried - was thinking about seeing a doctor...and for me, something has to be hanging-off by a thread to see the sawbones.
...anyway.. I was sitting in one recliner, the Wife in another. I was looking at the TV and occasionally I would look into the kitchen at this thing. It was so pronounced! I'd look at the TV - then I would stare at this thing in the kitchen .. looked at the TV.. Looked into the kitchen, etc., felt the gaze of familiar eyes, :0) ..so turned to give my Wife a Smile ...and she's giving me the strangest look - a real look of concern - she looked worried.. I smiled.. "what" ..says I..
"Do you see those things too!??" she whispered.
My blood runs cold just typing about it. She's just like me, She isn't gonna worry me "Hey babe, seeing weird shit" ... we're not those kinds of people. But, as you can imagine, we had a lot to chat about regarding this.. She had been seeing these-things too. And for a long time. One time she actually followed me down the hallway and into a back bedroom, when she got there, I wasn't. it wasn't me she was following.
What are these things? .. Don't know. Literally, I just don't know.. I know that it's very-likely that hundreds of years ago, they would be called demons, and I would guess that people today, many would call these things ghosts.
But I - Don't - Know.
..and I'm fine with that.
I don't need to know everything.
...Currently.. there is magic in this life that doesn't always need to have an explanation - right now! - today! ...In time? Most likely.
But today, these things should be appreciated, not feared.
But it was an odd exercise in the human condition - which makes me bring all ^...this up on this thread. .. Seems like we seek to explain things away.. "We don't know.." "We MUST know.." So many misfile-away all kinds of crap regarding "whatever" and call it "explained". I think many of us find peace in that. I know I did.
Another of my hobbies is (VERY) amateur astronomy.. I have seen things up there. I can't explain. One-time, a MASSIVE high-altitude obstruction of light I tracked in a straight line from horizon to horizon against the stars - moving very-very fast. Impossibly fast - Impossibly large, this obstruction of light was HUGE.. Miles across ..aaaaaand ...I don't now what that was either! LOL! :0)
...I know that we are conditioned to live on this planet. I know that. We are designed to breathe the elements, take in it's molds and bacteria in massive numbers and our bodies kill them off and discard them. We have evolved to suffer this planet's gravity, and it's atmospheric pressures. We have evolved to be able to freely live on this planet. It's ours.
Logically speaking, I don't see how "aliens" could live here in any-type of unrestricted fashion. ...Astronauts go into space and immediately begin to lose muscle mass - just for example. We are just not designed to live in those conditions..
And to Travel Trillions of miles - thousands of years ???? ...to see what? ??? ...The equivalent of a chimp, in a zoo? Makes no sense to me why anything smart enough, would.
But I have seen a few things I can't explain. Which is the reason for this post. And I don't pretend to know it all. Our eyes aren't that sensitive, our hearing isn't that great, and our finer senses / ambient processing skills have been dulled by "civilization" ..and the lack of need to engage in real survival.
And on top of all that, we're really not THAT smart either.. And what we lack in smarts we make-up for in ignorance.
Really... :0) ..How COULD we "know it all"?
So, I keep an open mind.. There's just a LOT of stuff out there that I file under "magic" ..Aliens being one of these things. ..And it's nice to have some magic in my life. It's humbling to not know. There's a purity in it.
And although a lot of people will predictably talk a lot of shit for fame, money and power ...Succinctly.. It's okay to skeptical.. As long as we keep an open mind.